Whao.. been a long time since i actually used this blog. Totally forgot about it back in 2009. Been reading through all the past post and realize there are a lot of good memories that are written here.
2009 was my last post and it was about 6 months till i ORD from my national service. 3 years has since passed since then and i have already been called back for 2 reservist and gotten my Diploma in Travel, Tourism and Hospitality management from MDIS. Well technically i have gotten it as i had to retake a module last Saturday. Hopefully i passed the module or i would have to re-module and its a super waste of time and money.
After the paper on Saturday, i have been thinking of going to Aussie to continue my studies. Stepping into a new country, a new culture and new place is a big step. No idea if i will be able to cope with the new environment.
Been almost almost 9 years since my dad passed away. Growing up without a father figure has been kinda rough. No one in the family understand stuffs from a guys perspective, thus bringing alot of conflicts between me and my family. Despite all the conflicts, i still love my family. We are still related by blood and nothing can change that. Just sometimes i wished they would understand. Miss you loads dad where ever you maybe, wish you were here to give me advices when i needed em. Or just had someone i could have a men to men talk over some drinks. But well, life still goes on.
R.I.P Ron Lai...
P.S I know a few people actually had this blog adderess when i created this but i doubt they even use blogs anymore. If those of you who happen to still have this and saw my post on my FB and came here. Hello to you and lets meet up soon.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Monday, November 02, 2009
6 more weeks to ORD!!
Finally my service as an NSF is almost ending. Just 6 more weeks left till i ORD. Been clubbing a lot this few weeks. Mainly due to the stress that is building up at my work place. APEC event is piling all my work up like a mountain. Hope it finishes quickly so i can relax before i ORD. Even my understudy is not confirmed. So hopefully they are able to find one to come with the coming intake so i have time to teach him the stuffs there. His gonna have a hell of a time keeping up with the things.
So many stuffs have been happening recently, what happens when two good friends fall for the same person? Who backs off? The one that knew the person first? Or the one who is not so close to the person backs off? Will chasing the person spoil the relationship of the two good friends??
Matters of the hearts are so complicated. So many stuffs happened but i did not have a clue what happened till now. Lucky not to be dragged into the complicated stuffs? Or just ignored cause my opinions did not matter. Haha, o well does not matter as its all over no point looking back. Look forward to the future, but for me its real bleak. I do not know where i wanna go and study once i am done with my Service, no idea what i wanna do in the future.
Another major milestone of my life is coming up....
So many stuffs have been happening recently, what happens when two good friends fall for the same person? Who backs off? The one that knew the person first? Or the one who is not so close to the person backs off? Will chasing the person spoil the relationship of the two good friends??
Matters of the hearts are so complicated. So many stuffs happened but i did not have a clue what happened till now. Lucky not to be dragged into the complicated stuffs? Or just ignored cause my opinions did not matter. Haha, o well does not matter as its all over no point looking back. Look forward to the future, but for me its real bleak. I do not know where i wanna go and study once i am done with my Service, no idea what i wanna do in the future.
Another major milestone of my life is coming up....
Sunday, August 09, 2009
National Day
Woah, National Day is here again. Been years since i went to watch the fireworks. Haha, i guess the older you get the more you prefer to watch the fireworks in the comfort of the sofa at home haha. Somthing funny happened on thurs while i was at work man. This reservist asking me about my age and when i revealed that i was only 20 he was stunned, he said he thought i was 28. Lolz. WTF man do i look that old. Sad man.
Caught GI joe on friday, quite a nice show. Though the story line abit wtf, but its an action movie so cant expect much haha. It has over the top action, surperb CGI effects, and hot babes too. So whats there to complain haha.
Caught GI joe on friday, quite a nice show. Though the story line abit wtf, but its an action movie so cant expect much haha. It has over the top action, surperb CGI effects, and hot babes too. So whats there to complain haha.
Sunday, August 02, 2009
It's been a year since I last blogged. So many things have changed but one thing has not changed. For three years I have not been able to put away my feelings of past relationship. I don't know what I have been holding on to or why have I been holding on. Maybe there are some regrets I have in the past. All these time i have been wondering where would we be if we had handled things differently in the past. Would my life be different? For the worse? Or for the better?
Whats done is done so I'll just treasure those times in the past. Glad your doing well now, i am happy that we managed to meet up a few days back. For a moment, it felt like the past. But somehow i knew it was different. Anyhow, glad it happened.
Have been serving NS for about 1 year and a half now. Actually its more then that but whats most important is that its almost over. On 12/12/09 i will finally be a free man and a new chapter of my life will begin. Well its been a good run. Going into a world govern by the military. Working in a environment that is a stranger to me. Where a slight mistake would cause a chain event to happen. Finally its almost over. And once its over i got to start thinking of what to do in my life again. Actually i should start doing that now. Thinking about my future. What kind of job will i be in. What kind of person i want to be. Till now i am still lost in what kinda future i want to have.
I wonder what it would be to have a dad at this time of my life. During the whole time my dad was in hospital, i was so sure that he would be ok. The day before the doctor told us that he had a fever and to be prepared, i had went to the hospital to visit him. He looked at us but was too weak to speak due to medication. He looked fine, who would have thought he would get a high fever that very night and be pronounced brain dead. I have always been thinking, if i had visited him more often, had spoke to him more while he was in hospital, would the outcome be different? If he was still here, what advices would he give? Ever since he passed away. I have always told myself to be strong as i had to look after my sis and did not want my family to worry about me. Only on the day of his death did i break down in front of my family. Only one person has seen me breakdown because of my dad's death. Its difficult keeping stuff hidden deep inside not letting people know. Even thou the family is doing fine, i can feel that its different, without my dad in this family. Its very different. How i wished i had someone who knew how i felt and had someone to share the burden with.
Sometime back Michael Jackson passed away. Affected the whole world. Everywhere i went i kept hearing his songs. I guess in everyone's heart, MJ songs have a special place. MJ songs reminds me of my family in the past, before my dad passed away. His songs were kinda like a bond we all shared. Songs of MJ would always be playing, weather it be in the car while traveling, or at home playing on the karaoke set. But ever since he passed away, live has been so quiet... too quiet... One particular song i kept hearing was "You are not alone". Not surprised that as its a very touching song.
The first verse of the song means alot to me. Kinda relates how i feel all this time. Both towards the death of my dad, and my past relationship
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
Whats done is done so I'll just treasure those times in the past. Glad your doing well now, i am happy that we managed to meet up a few days back. For a moment, it felt like the past. But somehow i knew it was different. Anyhow, glad it happened.
Have been serving NS for about 1 year and a half now. Actually its more then that but whats most important is that its almost over. On 12/12/09 i will finally be a free man and a new chapter of my life will begin. Well its been a good run. Going into a world govern by the military. Working in a environment that is a stranger to me. Where a slight mistake would cause a chain event to happen. Finally its almost over. And once its over i got to start thinking of what to do in my life again. Actually i should start doing that now. Thinking about my future. What kind of job will i be in. What kind of person i want to be. Till now i am still lost in what kinda future i want to have.
I wonder what it would be to have a dad at this time of my life. During the whole time my dad was in hospital, i was so sure that he would be ok. The day before the doctor told us that he had a fever and to be prepared, i had went to the hospital to visit him. He looked at us but was too weak to speak due to medication. He looked fine, who would have thought he would get a high fever that very night and be pronounced brain dead. I have always been thinking, if i had visited him more often, had spoke to him more while he was in hospital, would the outcome be different? If he was still here, what advices would he give? Ever since he passed away. I have always told myself to be strong as i had to look after my sis and did not want my family to worry about me. Only on the day of his death did i break down in front of my family. Only one person has seen me breakdown because of my dad's death. Its difficult keeping stuff hidden deep inside not letting people know. Even thou the family is doing fine, i can feel that its different, without my dad in this family. Its very different. How i wished i had someone who knew how i felt and had someone to share the burden with.
Sometime back Michael Jackson passed away. Affected the whole world. Everywhere i went i kept hearing his songs. I guess in everyone's heart, MJ songs have a special place. MJ songs reminds me of my family in the past, before my dad passed away. His songs were kinda like a bond we all shared. Songs of MJ would always be playing, weather it be in the car while traveling, or at home playing on the karaoke set. But ever since he passed away, live has been so quiet... too quiet... One particular song i kept hearing was "You are not alone". Not surprised that as its a very touching song.
The first verse of the song means alot to me. Kinda relates how i feel all this time. Both towards the death of my dad, and my past relationship
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Life is getting so boring for me now.. feel so bored at work too. Everyday doing the same old things, cant talk much about it on the blog as i may get charged for it.. kinda sucks.
Why is it when i tell people that my work sucks, i always get replies that police is very slack. Even thou the job is not as physically tiring as in the SAF or SCDF but its equally tiring mentally. I get calls from a friend of mine who keeps on telling me that a person is in a camp at tekong and thats his very ke lian. So my life in HTA was not ke lian? Because i got to book out every week?? Because i got to have free time from after 5?? What about the exams? The classes that we had? Haiz... I dunno bah..
Police training may not tbe physically tiring like the ones in SAF and SCDF, i respect those people that been throu those, but we in the Police force also went throu another kind of training. And its equally tiring, althou not physically but mentally...
Why is it when i tell people that my work sucks, i always get replies that police is very slack. Even thou the job is not as physically tiring as in the SAF or SCDF but its equally tiring mentally. I get calls from a friend of mine who keeps on telling me that a person is in a camp at tekong and thats his very ke lian. So my life in HTA was not ke lian? Because i got to book out every week?? Because i got to have free time from after 5?? What about the exams? The classes that we had? Haiz... I dunno bah..
Police training may not tbe physically tiring like the ones in SAF and SCDF, i respect those people that been throu those, but we in the Police force also went throu another kind of training. And its equally tiring, althou not physically but mentally...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
A few days back during the IT show, my Desktop broke down. So i went down to have a look at the laptops there. And i finally got the macbook pro!! Its gonna create a super big hole in my pocket man. But o well, i think its worth it cause this is gonna last me for a super long time. Have not been blogging lately, nothing much to blog about actually, lolz. Dont think much ppl visit this blog, only can think of a hand full tat comes here. Everyday i go to work at PKTC, finish work come home do nothing, and wait for the nxt day to go back to work. kinda no life. Lolz.
Todae after work, i met my good brother wei ling in bus 52. Lolz, been super long since i met up with the guys from 5/1 already. Hope to meet up with em soon. Well, hopefully this weekend i can find some activity. If not i will be damn bored.
Todae after work, i met my good brother wei ling in bus 52. Lolz, been super long since i met up with the guys from 5/1 already. Hope to meet up with em soon. Well, hopefully this weekend i can find some activity. If not i will be damn bored.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Friends, Family, Life, Endless Love.
Life has been quite good for me, passing out from tracom on the 7th of may. Hopefully i'll get a good posting. The future for me is kinda hazy atm, not sure what i wanna do in the future. Weather getting a diploma throu part time studies while serving NS or signing on to the police force with a N lvl cert. I do not know. Only know thing thats clear in my mind is all about the past, stuffs that i miss doing. Being a "regular kid". Carefree life, dont have to care about the future, no need for planning of financial stuffs. Life where i had a mum and dad to turn to whenever i wanted to. Seems like life now changes so quickly. Friends growing up, families weather immediate or distant going into a new chapter of thier life.
Went through youtube the other day and found a very classical song which i have listened to countless of times as it was one of my dad's favourite. I did not understand since i was still young why he kept listening to it all day. But as we all grow up, our understanding for things also grows. After 10 years down the road, i finally understand why he liked the song.
Endless love, for my family, my cousins, my friends and my loved ones. Hope you guys enjoy this song. It goes out to all you guys.
Endless Love
Went through youtube the other day and found a very classical song which i have listened to countless of times as it was one of my dad's favourite. I did not understand since i was still young why he kept listening to it all day. But as we all grow up, our understanding for things also grows. After 10 years down the road, i finally understand why he liked the song.
Endless love, for my family, my cousins, my friends and my loved ones. Hope you guys enjoy this song. It goes out to all you guys.
Endless Love
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